Pre exam result stress

Feeling: Nervous
Listening to: Above & Beyond presenting Oceanlab: If I Could Fly

Results will be out tomorrow. All of my friends and other students from UiTM are nervous about it. I hope that all of us do well, especially the final year students (law especially). My past results aren't really stellar but they're okay. I just want to pull the grade that enables to be accepted to LLB Hons program. But then again, I shouldn't worry so much about the past. I just have to acknowledge it and let it go. Just embrace the present and look forward to the future. I just have to be confident and have faith that I pass (Insya Allah). Well, I survived the last 7 sems right? Surely (Insya Allah), I'll survive the 8th (and final) semester.

Yes, I'm worried. Worried that I might fail a paper and simultaneously ruin my chance to get to LLB this March. I really want LLB so badly this March. It must be this March. I don't want to postpone or prolong anything anymore. I mean, taking a one-year extension for BLS is enough. Not that I regret at the extension. I like it actually. I'm more flexible and have more time for myself. Plus, I don't get all stressed out. I made some new friends (and a new annoying classmate) and found a new way to remain in touch with my old ones. Most importantly, my grades improve. Looks like I perform better with less subjects.

I used to rush in things. Rushing to grow up so I can have more freedom. Rushing to finish school so I can go to uni. Yes, my goal when I was in school was to get out and go to uni. Rushing to finish uni so I can work and earn more money. As I get older (and maybe a little bit wiser), I realized that I just have to finish everything in my own pace. Who cares if some child genius prodigy managed to enter Oxford Uni at the age of 14? Who cares if some genius child prodigy managed to solve an Add Math problem when he's only 6 years old? Who cares! They ain't living your life. They don't really play a substantive role in your life. Why measure yourself according to them? Life's short but that doesn't give us a good reason to rush life. We just have to use all the time we have to live our life with our family and friends, have a good career and stuff. Just go with the flow. But, don't go too slow. You might every opportunities that come your way. No same opportunities come twice. Well, they sometimes do but it just won't feel the same. But that also doesn't mean that one is better than the other. They're different and special in their own (twisted) way.

In conclusion (essay much?), I would like to wish all my UiTM friends all the best in their exam result ;)



This video might be inspirational I hope (contains profanity).